There are so many things that I would like to change by going back in time. Things / situations & people that have left void in my life. So many times, my family has tried hard to help me recover but whenever I recall those situations, they still have the power to suck all my energies & wreak me emotionally. So, today after a good thought, I am sharing TWO guilt of my life. I am sure that after I write them down here & hopefully, people affected or involved read this directly or indirectly, it will help me come at peace with myself. For me, it will be case heard, explained & closed & should give me the power to move on.
Guilt 1: I backed off, yeah I backed off at the last moments with so many friends who dreamed with me, I dreamed with them about venturing in different businesses. We worked on the idea, shortlisted offices, finalized locations & right before giving that cheque out of my pocket, I backed out. I backed out because it didn’t seem right & I didn’t had the courage to speak. Something was missing. Something was out of order. What was it? I still don’t know but something didn’t feel right & I chose to back out rather than speak up. Fast Forward few years, things have turned out to be good for them as well as for me but the tag of Backing out is still tagging with me. No body ever confronted me but its a self conscious guilt that I am carrying with myself & trying hard to get rid of. Hopefully soon I will be at peace with my own self.
Learning: Speak when the time is right. Don’t hesitate because if you don’t speak, you might end up loosing friendship over time.
Guilt 2: Never work with close friends because if things don’t work out professionally, your personal relationships will get stained & they will be stained for life. Unfortunately, a lot of well wishers warned me against the decision of working together with a close friend. We or rather I didn’t pay any heeds & still went ahead. As a result, numbers didn’t turn out the way expected & again I had to be the one to initiate parting ways. It wasn’t easy but as an entrepreneur, you are bound to take some tough decisions. I wish things could have better, I wish you could have performed, I wish we could have dealt situation in a better manner. The concerned has ventured into business with someone & seems to be doing good while I got busy with my own life. They say time is the biggest healer, I am waiting to be healed completely and take on guilt free life.
Learning: Just wanna say to everyone reading this – Do Not work with friends especially close friends & listen to your well wishers.
“Guilt is not a response to anger; it is a response to one’s own actions or lack of action. If it leads to change then it can be useful, since it is then no longer guilt but the beginning of knowledge. Yet all too often, guilt is just another name for impotence, for defensiveness destructive of communication; it becomes a device to protect ignorance and the continuation of things the way they are, the ultimate protection for changelessness.” – Audre Lodre
I truly hope this article helps you in handling life situations better. If you have confessions or guilt to address. My advice to you will be to act now. Either talk to the affected people or write it. This will help you feel liberated & helps you become emotionally stronger & stable.